Now What?!

There is a question that comes and goes like a shooting star in my mind:

“Now what?”

And just as quickly as it comes, more questions begin to appear:

What’s next? What do You want me to do? Who do You want me to be now, Lord?

When you’re navigating health issues, chronic pain, and the exhaustion that follows surgery and recovery, these questions hit different. This season has shaken me in ways I never imagined it could. Managing one health problem is already overwhelming, but when it feels like it’s never just one thing, frustration becomes a familiar visitor.

Add to that the challenges of parenting an AuDHD child entering puberty, while you yourself are running on an empty tank and the weight becomes even heavier. I’m exhausted. And to be completely honest, some days I don’t have the bandwidth. Some days the only words I have for God are tears.

But here’s the thing:

God is still faithful. Always.

Even when my voice has been weak, both physically and spiritually. Even when worship has felt like a whisper instead of a song. He is still faithful!

This season has been a process. A painful one and a refining one. And yes, I’ve had moments lately where a weariness has wanted to take the lead. Tears running down my face as the questions poured out again… Now what, Lord? Yet every time, God meets me with tenderness. He doesn’t shame my weakness; He strengthens it. He doesn’t dismiss my pain; He sits in it with me. And this week, in the very moments I needed Him, He sent reminders of His faithfulness.

One of those reminders came through a friend. We challenged each other to send Bible verses to help us stay anchored in God’s truth as we walk through our own individual deserts. And one morning, she sent me Habakkuk 2:3:

“For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it lingers, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay.”

At first, I read it with a little… attitude. lol

A mix of exhaustion and “Okay Lord, I know You have a plan, but can You just show me how and when already?”

(Unbelievable, I know! The audacity. 😂)

But because God is so kind, so patient, so full of grace, He gently corrected me. I felt His nudge:

“Read it again.”

This time, the words hit deeper.

Because just the night before, I had written nearly the same words in my journal to Him. It felt like God whispering back:

“I’m listening, daughter.

Don’t doubt for a second that I will lead you.

I will provide.

I will bring clarity, at the appointed time.”

God is so thoughtful. So intentional. He answers us not always with explanations, but with presence. Not always with details, but with reassurance. He meets us exactly where we are, even in our deserts.

For the One Asking ‘Now What?’

Maybe you’re reading this and asking the same questions.

Maybe you’re walking through your own valley of uncertainty, exhaustion, or waiting.

Maybe your heart is whispering:

“Lord… now what?”

Here is what God wants you to know:

1. He hears you.

Psalm 34:17 — “The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; He delivers them from all their troubles.”

Your tears are not unnoticed. Your sighs are not ignored.

2. He is working in the waiting.

Isaiah 64:4 — “No eye has seen a God besides You, who acts on behalf of those who wait for Him.”

Delay is not denial. Silence is not absence. Waiting is preparation.

3. He has an appointed time for clarity.

God is not late. He is precise.

Habakkuk 2:3 is not just a verse; it’s a promise.

4. He will carry you when you have no strength left.

Isaiah 46:4 — “I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.”

5. He will be faithful to you in every season.

Lamentations 3:22–23 — “His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning. Great is Your faithfulness.”

Let This Encourage Your Heart Today

You are not failing.

You are not forgotten.

You are not behind.

You are not alone.

God is shaping you, steadying you, holding you, and guiding you even here, even now.

The question “Now what?” isn’t a sign of weakness; it is an invitation.

A doorway into deeper trust.

A reminder that God doesn’t expect you to have the answers, He simply asks you to follow His voice.

And He will speak.

At the appointed time.

In the appointed way.

With the appointed clarity.

Until then… rest in His faithfulness.

With Love,

Aurey