YADAH! God all I Want IS YOU!

Through This Lens: When All I Want Is Jesus

As a worship leader and music lover, the way I connect with God has always been through worship—that’s how I YADAH. Lifting my hand up to Him while blasting off singing to Him, oh, how I love to worship Him like that.

In Hebrew, YADAH means to praise with extended hands, to give thanks, to surrender, and to confess who God is with your whole being. It’s not just singing—it’s a posture of the heart. It’s the kind of worship that says, “I may not have it all together, but I lift my hands and acknowledge that You are still worthy.” The kind of worship where you are just even sobbing (moco tendido lol) buggers coming out, hahaha. You know what I'm talking about.

Anyway, sorry I got sidetracked. Well, for me, YADAH has often looked like singing.

Throughout my life, YADAH has taken on different forms, as I have raised my hands—through singing, playing instruments, a heart of thanksgiving, and dancing. But no matter what, there’s always been singing. Since I can remember. My mom has always said that since I was 2 years old, I carried a microphone and sang all over. That’s always been where I meet Him most deeply.

But this time around… I’ve had to YADAH differently. Because when I try to sing, the voice just doesn’t come out right. It’s off-key, flat, almost like it’s trapped or for the most part nothing comes out. Not even when I have been sick. It’s been hard. It’s brought me to tears more times than I can count. All I do is use my voice for singing, preaching, and counseling others, and now it's like this endless strain that doesn't go away. Praise God it is getting better. So As i YADAH as been not associated with singing. IT has bee simply lifting my hands in praise and adoration while sobbing lol.

One night as I was worshipping God, I said, “You know what, Lord? All I want is you. Give me Jesus.If I never sing another note, I still want You more than anything else.” What in the world Aurey why would you say that? Be careful what you speak! WELLLLLL!!! I Speak JESUS! ALL I WANT IS JESUS! That — that’s YADAH.It’s surrender.It’s praise that comes from deep within when words and melodies fall short.It’s exalting His name from the quiet places — when all you can do is be still and let your heart worship.

When you worship from that place — it comes out differently.You start to see differently.You start to feel that holy shift — not because of anything you did, but because of who He is.

Honestly, I think that’s where the purest worship is born — in the desert places.When you’re walking through the unknown, when you don’t understand, wh

en your old ways of worship don’t “work” anymore — and yet you still choose to praise.You still choose gratitude. You still choose to remember who He is.

That’s when everything changes.

I’ve had to fight through moments of negativity, hopelessness, and old habits trying to creep back in. But in those moments, I’ve had to speak to my soul and say:

“Soul, do not forget what God has done. Put every thought captive to His obedience.”(Psalm 103:2; 2 Corinthians 10:5)

And in those quiet moments, two songs kept coming to mind—the bridge of “Give Me Jesus” BY UPPERROOM:

“I don’t want anything else, I don’t need anyone else — You are my one thing.”

and the bridge of “What a God” by SEU WORSHIP:

“If I feel Your heart and never see Your hand I still have it all No treasure of this life could ever satisfy God, You are my everything”

Both lines became my prayer. Because sometimes YADAH doesn’t sound like a song — it sounds like surrender.It sounds like tears and trust.It sounds like “Give me Jesus.”

Seeing Through the Lens of Worship

In my last post, “Get New Glasses While You’re Waiting,” I talked about changing the way we see while we wait on God.

When you learn to YADAH in the waiting, when you lift your hands even in silence, you begin to see through the lens of worship—a lens that shifts your focus from what you’ve lost to who He is. Through that lens, even the waiting becomes holy ground. Even the silence becomes a song. Because when all you want is Jesus, your worship doesn’t depend on the sound of your voice—it depends on the posture of your heart. There is where you meet God. Let go of your control and let God take full control of your life.

So Im here to remind YOU GOD SEE YOU! ALL HE WANT IS YOU! ARE YOU GOING TO CHOOSE HIM?

AMEN!

With Love Aurey